the 13th day of 1st job (pressure)

had 4 hours for rest, and its time for working...
hmm, on the working hours having talking and chit-chatting with the workmates, then i realised i am really a DUMP, i cant understand IBAN, even BM i cant really understand it too...
I feeling so pressure, they keep blaughing and laughing at my stupidness, weirdness, dan2 xiao3, scare hot, scare things broken, scare knife, scare of letting the bread "not kembang".... (i am new in pastry, and you people taking knife like what, and always call me to take things which will broken and keep telling me broken and you will going to pay for it...)

what i did :

1. Chocolate Rice Muffin

2. Garlic Bread

3. receiving a lot of ingredian, stock from stor (breakfast cereal, flour, sugar, condensed milk, evapoprate milk, agar-agar powder, fresh milk)

4. refill 50kg sugar into the Huge Cointainer in kitchen.

5. wrapping Mix Fruit Cake (the gift for the ppl who attend wedding dinner)

what i ate for breakfast :

1. Chipmore (in home)

2. bread + tuna + cucumber + tomato

3. fried Kuehtiaw

4. Cromozone

5. breakfast cereal (honey star, cornflakes, coco-crunch)

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i am exhausted,

i am tired,

i am sad,

i am pressure,

i hate i have no choice,

i hate i was not given any chances,

i hate that i am the no-power person in home,

i need hug,

i need caring,

i need somethings i want.